| AND BETTER THAN EVER! OH HELL YEAH BITCHES, U KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS! HAHAHAHAHA! Its true its all true, your eyes havent failed you, and you're not going fully retarded (because in my beautiful philosiphy, we are all just a bit retarded, some more than others, me a whole hell of a lot to be sure!) I am definately writing to ya'll again, all two people who still read this lol. I spose Myspace and moreso Facebook is where its all at now... and youtube going strong. BUT, I got a wild hair up my ass, and after almost a year break, decided it was time for an update.. and a change of pace... well okay i lied, the pace has not relaly changefd, just the course smoothened out a bit... i had a year of peeling off layer and layers, infact 3 or 4 years.. and so much of that ya'll got to experience with me... so wtf happened? why did i take off? WTF was my last very cryptic message about? Let me back track to a year ago.. Vancouver... lets set the scene.. David and I and our funder, in a cramped apartment, awaiting funding for our project. We had been there over a month. I had my first marijuana experience tjat ltierally almost killed me, complete with a call from the parademics and my lungs shutting down and heart spasms.... yeah.. not cool lol. the website IA.com was seeing its dakrest times, and a decisoin to shut it down had to be made... and I really, truely saw people and humanity for who it was,a sad, angry, jealous, lazy child that wants everything but refuses to move, but yet trips anyone it sees moving. I had to remove myself from humanity, even ya'll, because it was too dark to share. Also revelations, of my past, seeing what happened to so much of the youth.. seeing some of ther easons WHY my brain has so much dysfunction... remeeting Jessica twice on the street, who was the girl that destroyed our lives. Remember her? We invited her as a helaing guest and highered her to help us find funding for our project. she found it alright, and then sabotged ours.. thus making us banmkrupt, and homeless for a year. we are JUSt beginnig to recover form this... and i ran into her twice on the sreet there.... anyway, things got out of contorl, the funding was getting delayed and delayed, we were going on month three of being there... and then... the decision to shut down the website. People began following us home... some scary things happened, and David and I decided to remove ourselves from all this CRAP. and when i say CRAP i mean all the spiritual newage BS, because I was beginning to see for moist people it was more of af ashion statement than anything else. We wanted to build a new world and yet, humanity decided not to be ready. So we retreated. We went back to KC, stayed with family... and healed. we didnt know wherelse to go, or what else to do. we saw that the spirtual community was NOT going to support our projects or anyone elses, so we had to refocus. I took on a few jobs, some successful, others humiliating, and some were quick lessons that moved on. I've been in Kansas City almost a year now.. and in that time, I decided to hit all my fears head on. and my god, i feel so free. so, what did i do while i was here? Well, I was the director or a talent agency, I was the vocal teacher and marketing and promotions gal for Rock U, a rock n roll university for kids, I was a kids club attendant at 24 hr fitness, and the best one of all, i was a abr tender lol. Yep, a bar tender, and that was very recent. Id ecided i am 23, never bene into a bar, and was scared to death of alchohol and drunk people, and that it was time to let this go. So, I took a random job at a bar and restraunt that is known for being artsy. We could say what we wanted, dress however we wanted, and be as rude and fun as we could. I had the time of my life, made soo much money, and saw people who drink ar ejust people like me, and that it was okay :D It was there I met some of my dearest friends. I now have a social life! I'm not kidding! One outside of David can u believe it? The bar I worked at has a huge concert arean outside and their was a weekend I was working the concerts. I saw this young man dressed in street clothes mulling about and i knew i had to talk to him.i waved, he waved back, the rest is hisotry. he was in one of the bands performing, and i got to meet all the members and get to know them. ive become very close with them all and the musuc is amazing. i encourage u to check out the music and support my friends www.myspace.com/itsoverkansascity Ryan is the one I am closest to, hes the one i waved at, and the alien singer jamie, he and i are close as well. He is gonna change the world :D I now have a huge apartment loft downtown. Its way to expensive but damn I love it. I now do what I love to do and sustain myself doing it. I refuse to work any jobbs that arent good for me or that mke met urn off my soul. and i am so proud to say I am finally an indepennt gal, ehale,d balabnced, and so fucking blessed and happy. Sadly, david went through much worse than I did. he went on a business trip to Canada this past june, and by accident they deactivated his visa. we highered a lawyer, who did nothing for us, and david stayed in toronto for 3 months... homeless. We made the decision to send him back home. He is now in France, and we are currently working on his immigration. I miss hims o much its been... god 4 months since ive seen him. hes my best friend and will continue to always be my family. but i needed this rbeak.. so did he, so we could see who we are, who we were, and who we are becomming. my goals have not changedl, just altered in perception. still working on building communities, still working on shifting the powers of the world and giving the money to those who will build the new societies, and NOW I AM WORKING ON MY SOLO ALBUM! I work with two producers and a song writer, and i write most my material. Its coming along so well. I see where I am going and the future is so amazing. As time goes on I will keep you guys more posted and updated, and reveal more from my past and what happened to us. But for now, this is enough, more than an ear or eyeful can stand, and I must depart. I am a new woman, not more refined, but more free to be me, to not fear a goddamned thing, because when u truely let go of everything, EVERYTHING, eevry possession, everyoinbe uve ever loved, ever fear, and been so close to death as i was more than once, u learn how the game really is... I have nothing to fear :d ive got a stealth team of angels he;lping me and deadly intuition that guides me wherever I need to go. One of the biggestlessons i learned is this: DONT FUCK WITH ME. And that I keep everywhere the second i elarned: COMPASSION ALWAYS Those two things will be my tools as my angels guide me down the path ive created to get to my goals. Sometimes Ig et frustrated because I know what I need to do, but I cant always do it in the timing I had laid out, or that my angels helped guide me to. They remind me that what I want to do is tied into the mass conscuiousnes sof the planet since i will be helping everyone, and just to remain calm and focused and listen to their guidance and my heart. and then it will be kay. and all is well :D Ive gotten some great and disturbing messages as of late as to the state of humanity.. and all i got to say is this: If youve been sitting on your ass, refusing to wake up, refusing to move, then please, watch your back :D However if youve been actively trying to make changes in this world, then be blessed. blessings are coming for everyone who feels worthy of it and who is going to contribute to so much. The new world really is here, and there is no stopping it. Hang onto your hats, your possessionsm, whatever you want, whatever u hold dear, because when the ride is alll said, done and over, we are gonna be in a beaytiful world. Im already there, ebcause i feel soo happy everyday. everyday feels like heaven. alright, im done, and i will update sometime soon! imissed u all so much and stil love you. take care, too many blessings for ya'll :D -Miss Kati |
